Aaron Kunin, p.4
THE SORE THROAT
The throat is
sore for a
word. It is
sore with word-
desire, desire
for the word "she."
The word "she": will
it appear? Will
she appear?
(is the word
"she" a she?)
She is a
word I always,
without knowing,
had in mind.
Once, to my shame,
I had no
idea
what to do
with the word
"she"; now it seems
like I don't know
any other
word. It seems like
everything
is a she,
money is
a she (you're
so complete you
don't have to think
about money!
You have so much
money you
don't know what
knowing is!),
knowing is
a she, and in
heaven, God is
a she. No more
herr Gott, from now
on, no more
seigneur, no
more boy-God:
the end! But
won't she start to
wonder: "If there's
no word for 'he,'
if everything
is a she,
why would we
have to have
a word for
it? If this word
appears every-
where, it won't mean
anything." And
at last she
may say to
you: "You are
my own good
boy. For me
there's no choice:
no other
boy will do."
The throat is
sore for a
word. It is
sore with word-
desire, desire
for the word "she."
The word "she": will
it appear? Will
she appear?
(is the word
"she" a she?)
She is a
word I always,
without knowing,
had in mind.
Once, to my shame,
I had no
idea
what to do
with the word
"she"; now it seems
like I don't know
any other
word. It seems like
everything
is a she,
money is
a she (you're
so complete you
don't have to think
about money!
You have so much
money you
don't know what
knowing is!),
knowing is
a she, and in
heaven, God is
a she. No more
herr Gott, from now
on, no more
seigneur, no
more boy-God:
the end! But
won't she start to
wonder: "If there's
no word for 'he,'
if everything
is a she,
why would we
have to have
a word for
it? If this word
appears every-
where, it won't mean
anything." And
at last she
may say to
you: "You are
my own good
boy. For me
there's no choice:
no other
boy will do."